Permission to just be whatever you need to be

Here in Spain we’re coming up to the 60 day mark for the number of days that we’ve been in captivity, sorry, I mean, isolation. Actually, I’m not sorry. Spain’s quarantine is one of the strictest in the world, so I’m going to allow myself to feel the worst parts of being confined.

I don’t know about you but I'm actually learning to forgive myself for a lot of things, lately.

I forgive myself for shouting at my son.
I forgive myself for being moody with my husband.
I forgive myself for not getting the work done that I want to do.
I forgive myself for being slower to get back to emails than usual.
I forgive myself for feeling restless.
I forgive myself for not having read the books I’ve got on my Kindle.
I forgive myself for being distracted.
I forgive myself for spending more time than usual on social media.

What do you need to forgive yourself for?

We all need to give ourselves a break. We all need to stop expecting to feel normal during this time. If you do, then that’s wonderful, but if you don’t then that’s really okay, too.

I’ve quickly come to realize that I can't have the same expectations that I had before, because we’re not living under the same conditions. And also importantly, every single one of us is experiencing these conditions in our own unique ways.

I flit between absolutely loving our lockdown life, to worrying about the future, to pulling my hair out because I can’t get any work done, to sitting on my veg patch, pulling up weeds without a care in the world! We're on a rollercoaster, people. And we’re in for a long, bumpy, exhilarating ride.

You have to take each day and week as they come. You have to find your own ways to ground yourself and get done what you want and need to do. You have to be kind to yourself and get in touch with how you’re feeling.

It’s totally okay to lower your expectations of what you can do and be during this time. Don’t feel pressure to feel like you should be doing something, anything. Don’t force yourself to do work if you’re really not feeling like it. Don’t be active in your business, if your heart isn’t in it. Don’t feel pressure to jazz up your platforms or show the world that you're living your best life on social media, if you’re not, or you don’t want to.

If you need it, this post is your permission to just be, whatever it is that you need to be, right now. Whatever it is that you want to do. Just do it. Whatever you want to be. Just be it. Everything will right itself, when it and you are good and ready.

Take care,

Natasha x

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